hey , im feeling down right now .
let me tell you why alright ?

first of all ,im really missing my bf alot . now waiting for hym to msg me tautau . he said he will msg me later and later i dont know when lor .

secondly i wanna say , i just hate living with my parents now . still ,they accused me for nothing at all . all i did was wrong to them . everytime yelled at me for no stupid reasons . they have been making me cried so many times . i guess im just so weak . i cried for some small reasons . i admit im a cry baby. i have a soft heart but yet no one took care of it . i aint part of the family huh ? i guess so . i guess , growing up isnt easy at all huh . there too many problems to face here . why cant i just live in a happy life ? i'd imagine what life is all about when i was young but then now i realise , its just so different . very different . i tried to be a good daughter , friend ,sister but i aint good at it . but why cant everybody treat me like how i used to be treated ? get all the love i wanted . i said i had no clue of what life would i have in the future but i realise it is nort at all . i want you to be there whenever i needed you the most but no . i want you to be my listener ear but no you cant . you can only criticize me , accused me and compared me to other people . i realise dreams also dont come true . do you guys believe that your dreams come true ? i dont believe it . because why ? all my dreams are wasted . all gone to waste . why it all have to hppn to me huh ? i wish i was in someone else's body or wish i didnt born in thys world . wish i was born on the other world or other year . i wish everything will start back all over again ):

hmmft .. what a life ehh .