Im The cause to your problems . im the cause if everyone else suffers down the road . i wont be tolerated . im a spoilt brat . im not being easy . im not thinking for the rest . im only thinking about myself . im not putting myself in the rest shoes . thats what you tell me . thats what i always get from you . havent you thought about me ? I HATE YOU . dont you care for me ? dont you have any love ? you want me to sacrifice for the rest . i told you yes after all i've said and you've heard , but when i said yes , you just refuse to believe . im sorry for belonging to you . im sorry for being yours . im sorry you didnt get another , better than me . i wish you did . im sorry .
life would had probably been easier without me , wouldnt it ? you may say no . but the way you show it to me , im a burden to you . to you all . i dont belong here .im sorry im yours . im sorry you had to keep me . im sorry you had to tolerate me . im sorry for being here . im sorry i wasnt someone else . im sorry for all these things . im sorry .
you want everyone else to have a better life . me ? im singled out here , arent i ? you just want to show me off to world for someone im not . am i right ? i wont allow you to that . im not who you THINK i am okay . your expectations may have been way better than who i am today . you didnt want me to turn out like this . but am i so 'BAD' ? what if i left ? would you miss me ? would you be happy ? do you want me around ? do you not ? do you love me ? do you not ? do you care ?
do you know , how many tears a day squeeze through my eyes because of you ? do you know how I feel ? do you know how unloved I feel ? do you know how sad i am ? do you know all this ?
sometimes i feel , you dont deserve me . you deserve way better . and thats 3 quarter of my life .
i know that i love you , but do you ? do you love me back ? or are you forcing yourself ? when i was wayyyy younger , i wasnt a burden to you or anyone . i was just this small 'thing' everyone else loved . now i've grown , im not that small lil 'thing' everyone can just love . you may feel i've changed . but do you expect me to have the same attitude now that i was having when i was 5 years old ? no problems , no tears . the only tears i had were when i was physically hurt .
now i've grown . ive been mentally hurt so many times . now there's tears on this face right here .
i dont want you to not love me . i dont want you to hate me . i dont want you to wish you had someone else to replace me . i dont want you to not care for me .And for those who read this and think im talking rubbish , YOU have not been in my position .