hello my sayangs [!]
how are you today ? fine ? have you eaten ? hmmphh -.-
life is very miserable to me .
let me tell you what i've been feeling nowadays .
to my beloved [m] & [d] ;
you guys never trusted me at all now . everything i do there's always comment from you two .not a praise or anything , just comments , bad comments i supposed . i tried to explain to you all my probs but what you do ? you just turn on me . you just walk away and do other stuffs rather than sitting with me talk abt my probs . you said you only hear the good stuffs, what good stuffs then ? how abt my probs ? you let other people hear my probs nort you . i was hoping you will listen but no . not a single thing you helped me . i can say that last time when i was a kid , you helped and that i cant deny but now . where has it all gone to ? manehrq jase shaa krg ltk ? meaning all this while , there's no point of helping you at all since you guys dont appreciate what im doing . do you appreciate ? i dont think so . you knw why ? because you nvr show me anything . you cared for others but me ? where ? manehrq ? i just want the love from you two . yes , i do have a bf to give love but you should give love to me too . like how you used to . i've been dying for your love but ever since i joined thys fucking school , you guys totally turn me in . like what ? like when i asked you for money , you said tmrw i'll give but in the end , i waited 2-3 days before you give me money . i need extra money , you said dont have but when it comes to my siblings , you gave them . why ? why them ? ehy please laahs , i need the both of your support taos . i cant depend on my friends , bf and teachers all the time . i also need you . i really miss those comfort , the laughter , the cries , the happiness we had last time . i really need that . *crying* i knw im bad but dont need to treat me like this . ok fine uhc . whatever . i knw im bad thats all . *tears flowing*
i love you tautau